Try to remember that when the world is enveloped in the longest, darkest night…..somewhere it is sunny and the sun will shine in this part of the world again too. Surround yourself with love and people who can just ‘be’ with you as you struggle through the darkness. They and their love are part of the light. Act ‘as if’ there was light and love and it will get easier to see it and take it in.
The darkness, I believe, comes from beliefs formed long ago when you were too young to know how inaccurate they were. Trust that these beliefs can change and then it is more likely to actually change. You deserve it.